I know....it's been awhile.

Life has been a rollercoaster ride these past few months. Battled with self-esteem, lack of direction and I suspect had bouts of depression- I refused to go to work, all I wanted to to was sleep and was totally, totally unmotivated.

Life was literally a drag.

I feel better now. Just a tad, but its an improvement. I am still battling with self-esteem. I still feel that I have no talent, that I am hopeless in work and basically a good for nothing.

I hope this new job (possibly a career) will inject in me some needed zest in my life. I hope I will discover my strengths and in turn fully utilise them toward success. I hope I will begin to find myself, gain composure and be more confident. I hope I will achieve happiness and inner calm.

I hope.

Is it possible to fall for two persons?

The Style: team is giving me more responsibilities. It's good but it also makes me wonder if they're making use of me.
Workload for school is impossible. It's only week 2 and I have 10 dollars worth of printed notes to read.
I have an obligation to update my fashion blog more regularly. Readership is increasing and a company just proposed to advertise on my blog.
I hope I'm not eating more than I can chew.

I'm so freaking pissed at you right now. Let go of your fucking emotional baggage, you overly sensitive bitch.

Just within a night I accidentally broke a person's heart and got my hopes dashed.
Just within a night, I allowed myself to entertain the thought that I might actually be making use of someone.
Just within a night, I got my mind fucked.
I hate tonight.

I think I've tripped a person. And the person is 11 years my senior.

- 2am Dessert Bar
- Sentosa
- Watch Elizabeth: The golden age
- Cold Rock Ice Creamery
- NYDC
- Home Club
- Buy ballet flats
- Blu Jaz
- Timbre
- Search for a good blueberry pie.

After watching the film, all I'm craving for is blueberry pie and a dollop of ice cream to along with it. Yum Yum.

Happy 2008 y'all!

...Was when I I found out that my CAP actually increased despite having had to juggle with internship, tuition and the heavy workload that comes with being in the Honours year. It was when I realise that I can do more, that I can achieve more and that I am somebody.
...Was when I had the best (belated)birthday celebration. Just me and my friend. At a cozy bar, sipping our mocktails, singing birthday songs to each other, exchanging gifts and sharing our dreams, trepidations, and idiosyncracies.

Bliss....

Do I go with my urges? Should I make the first move? Will it be the right move?
Questions leading to nowhere. Questions that beget more questions.

My birthday night was simple but it suffice. Caught National Treasures at the Cathay. It's not bad, though a bit draggy at some parts. Diane Kruger is hot and Nicholas Cage just seems wrong. Headed to River Valley for some dinner after which we headed down to zee place to see and be seen(well, according to some).

I like this December, though it tends to render me broke most of the time.